Never having piece of mind

[Cyan Grayheart]

A long day alone
Emptiness is so real
Never having peace of mind
Running from what I can't see
And there is nowhere left to hide
Turn and face these empty eyes
All alone, heart untold
Trying to find

All I had, all I could hold, gone far behind. Past is haunting, it follows and torments us as we go along. What we did, what we fear we will do. All of it boils down into who we are. So I've become a real whore. A slut of the highest caliber. Doesn't make me a bad person. Shouldn't be held against me. Simple as that. I'm a good person, I know it. I could have been what my father wanted, but I wasn't a guy. I wasn't good enough. No matter what the fuck I did, I wasn't good enough.

I try to find myself
I find the stranger trapped inside
And I'll take one more step away
From the face I used to recognize
Familiar shadows closing in
Suffocating fear descends
It comes alive, uncovered eyes

So why put something here right? Some request, some want.

I have one friend. One old fogey of a friend. And one promise for a sister I'll never see again.

These pads have gone far and seen too much. It is time for the wandering to stop and a new reason to live to replace them.

Basically I'm looking for friends, a pack. Hell I'd take enemies.

And there's always a part of me that hopes to find that love again, though I doubt it will happen.

Any takers?

Replace this fear inside
Take this nothingness from me
I want to find
I want to shine
I want to rise
Break me down

Break me down
I want to find
I want to shine
I want to rise
Break me down

Break me!